Time is Ticking....

As this night comes to a close it is becoming more apparent that I am getting much closer to 30 and I am not sure how I feel about this up coming event...well, I guess I still have a few years to get use to the idea. I have been told by many people that I am an over thinker so I suppose I am stressing about nothing. I try to look past the fact that I will one day loose my youth and try to set goals for my life one day at a time and I am very pleased with the choices I have made so far. It is hard to believe that my two best achievements are already growing up so fast before I know it they will be grown men. I remember my dad always said that life flies by and as a kid I never noticed it but I see what he meant. I wasted so much time being sad and depressed when things in my life didn't go as I had planned that sometimes I waste even more time trying to look back at what I didn't see...sounds stupid...huh? It is amazing that with a little time you see things much more clearly than you would have had you not taken the time to step back and take a glance into the world you once were a part of. I have said goodbye to so many people that I will always remember with the understanding that they were not meant to be in my life physically but only as a memory. Most people driven by the need for instant gratification and then here I am driven by something much more important than just my own personal needs. Leaving me to realize that maybe getting closer to 30 may not be so bad. It is a chance to explore my true self that I once thought I knew and was very sadly mistaken. With every choice from my past brings a knowledge of life in the real world that 10 years ago I actually thought I knew-was I ever wrong! I may still have a lot of learning to do but now I get it that true knowledge and wisdom comes with age...all the edlerly people I have worked with in my 5 years of homehealth actually were speaking from experience. So I guess this means all the times I thought my parents could never possibly understand what I was feeling or what I was going through that I was wrong....and if you are reading this and you know me then you should probably take note of this confession because it is rare that I admitt when I am wrong....lol! So now with the count down of turning 27 creeps by I am seeing the light....with every year comes knowledge and wisdom...so what if it also brings wrinkles and shaggy breast....at least I know I will be one smart woman.

The Oz experience

I searched for the most amazing gift for Dom and although the date of the show was about a month away I purchased him and I tickets to the Wizard of Oz. He seemed to understand but I know he did not so I wanted him to have something to remember this day for as long as possible and got him a wizard of oz book and we got all dressed up and went on our "date". I talked his ear off the drive there trying to prepare him for the experience and still when we got our tickets scanned he became overwhelmed by all the people and spotted the dark room we were headed toward and started screaming at this point I am almost certain we are leaving. Some how I was able to settle him down and we went searching for our seats. He didn't enjoy the wait and the loud people that surrounded us but when the stage hand came to introduce the show and the room began to dim he perked up with anticipation. He was so quiet and really taking in the show and when he got excited he would stand up and gasp...to experience this was something I will never forget! He waved at his favorite character the Scarecrow and was amazed by the special effects. This is something I feel we will do again, I am hoping to find a show that he will enjoy just as much. I am glad I have found something he and I can do together....as he gets older he wants to do so many things but sometimes he is not able to do so because of his disability. I see how hard it is for him to be approaching his teen years and how cruel people can be whether young or old...and I want to allow him to be himself and he loves acting out things and memorizes everything and while doing his acting most people stare or laugh but he doesn't care....this show was awesome he was able to see that he has something in common with someone..The Wonderful Wizard of Oz....