Time is Ticking....

As this night comes to a close it is becoming more apparent that I am getting much closer to 30 and I am not sure how I feel about this up coming event...well, I guess I still have a few years to get use to the idea. I have been told by many people that I am an over thinker so I suppose I am stressing about nothing. I try to look past the fact that I will one day loose my youth and try to set goals for my life one day at a time and I am very pleased with the choices I have made so far. It is hard to believe that my two best achievements are already growing up so fast before I know it they will be grown men. I remember my dad always said that life flies by and as a kid I never noticed it but I see what he meant. I wasted so much time being sad and depressed when things in my life didn't go as I had planned that sometimes I waste even more time trying to look back at what I didn't see...sounds stupid...huh? It is amazing that with a little time you see things much more clearly than you would have had you not taken the time to step back and take a glance into the world you once were a part of. I have said goodbye to so many people that I will always remember with the understanding that they were not meant to be in my life physically but only as a memory. Most people driven by the need for instant gratification and then here I am driven by something much more important than just my own personal needs. Leaving me to realize that maybe getting closer to 30 may not be so bad. It is a chance to explore my true self that I once thought I knew and was very sadly mistaken. With every choice from my past brings a knowledge of life in the real world that 10 years ago I actually thought I knew-was I ever wrong! I may still have a lot of learning to do but now I get it that true knowledge and wisdom comes with age...all the edlerly people I have worked with in my 5 years of homehealth actually were speaking from experience. So I guess this means all the times I thought my parents could never possibly understand what I was feeling or what I was going through that I was wrong....and if you are reading this and you know me then you should probably take note of this confession because it is rare that I admitt when I am wrong....lol! So now with the count down of turning 27 creeps by I am seeing the light....with every year comes knowledge and wisdom...so what if it also brings wrinkles and shaggy breast....at least I know I will be one smart woman.